Family

Broke something again. Again means I did it N times before. I also don't know why I always drop or missed something since I was small, then got scolded every time. Thought I can be careful next time, but I still did lot of mistake and caused lot of problems until now.

I miss the old times, there's only laughter, sharing, caring in the house, arguments were smth like once in a blue moon. Now, everything changed, it's became worst. I hate arguments everyday. Ya, no one likes that. Ya, many people can say lot of good things, talk sweet or anything regard to your condition, but they won't understand the suffer feeling if they didn't experience before. Parents argue frequently, sisters brothers are immature even they are already an adult. Selfish that left in the family. 

Thought I can don't cause any problems until the war ends, but accidents just happen. This accident is not a big problem, but it will makes the snowball becomes bigger. It's distracting my from studying for my final also, me already feel not motivated to study and problems everyday distracting me more and more. 

I want the daddy, mommy, 2 sisters that once I love so much. That's what I called a "family".